10:09 p.m. - 2019-09-02
Now almost two years later he acting devious and dragging me along for this ride of uncertainty and confusion.
He makes me upset but I cannot force him to want me and love me the way I want him and love him. The one thing I can do and control is not to let him only use me for his amusement. I’m more then just a toy for an old man, I deserve loyalty and love. I deserve commitment and emotion In my life. I deserve words of encouragement and engagement in my/our growth.
Don’t give me no fucking half loving! I want true love , no half hearted shit! If u with me , be with me!